I’ve been writing a lot about faithfulness and how the disciples didn’t display it when trying to exorcise a demon, or Jesus asking if he would find faith on the earth when he returned. Then I mentioned James saying Elijah had a nature like ours, and today I went and looked at him again.
God tells him to do a comparison between him and Baal. God brings fire and Elijah has 450 prophets of Baal slaughtered. Then he freaks out about a threat made on his life after all those false prophets were murdered. Why? Then God tells Elijah to go to a mountain, and this is where many people talk about God’s voice being still and quiet, but just forget about all of that. Ok there’s fire and earthquake and all hell breaks loose, and in every one of those instances the Bible states God was not “in” them. What does that mean? I would think if you aren’t “in” something, that means you had no part in it, so if it isn’t God it must be the “prince of the power of the air” (the devil). So Elijah pours out his complaint, God says step over here. Shows that the devil is on a short leash and can’t touch this prophet, then asks Elijah again, “What’s your problem?” and amazingly Elijah says again, “I’m as good as dead, I’m the last prophet and everyone wants to kill me.” (1 Kings 19)
I look at that and wonder “Has ALL of Israel been like that?” Gideon had to fleece God 3x’s. It’s like whenever God calls us to something we say “huh?”
On one hand I’m feeling pretty good about myself seeing that I compare really well with everyone else, but then again I want to expect something more. “God can I be the one faithful person on the earth? I really don’t want to flipflop. I’m frustrated with myself.”
I write a book on rest, can’t seem to absorb that info to save my life. Putting these things into practice is dang near impossible. Why? Because even when you know the truth your emotions get in the way. Watch a scary movie and try to go to bed afterwards. “I know the likelihood of an alien trying abduct me is slim to none, but I’m leaving the lights on anyway.”
I think we are just trained that everything has to work a certain way. God doesn’t heal, he uses doctors, God won’t miraculously fix your car, but your insurance come through, something gets broken, God won’t fix it but he will give you money to cover it. Or something to that effect. But look at Elisha. An axhead falls in some water, he takes a stick throws it in the water and makes the thing float. (2 Kings 6) That’s odd. So, if my toddler spills blue goop on the carpet I should be able to believe God can get the stuff out. OK so I’m rambling, but I’m trying to convince myself as well as whoever is reading, that things can just work if we believe.
What’s encouraging is even if we don’t get it for a while, God still remains faithful even when we are unfaithful. If we just give him a moment there’s hope.